Oh and

I can't freaking get my page to change. it just says its processing for like ever. so sorry for teh gayness

Oh, crap...

Not again. DX Well this could be problematic but for now, I will have to keep it to myself. Anyways, I haven't really written in a while. I just got finished with 1st semester finals. I did pretty good, I got all As and Bs for the first semester of High School (always had one pesky C). I came very close to having all As but maybe this semester. I've gotten accepted to Ball State, Manchester, and Hanover. Purdue denied me and Butler waitlisted me but it's whatever. I'm really leaning towards Manchester because its small and relatively close. I love everything about it except the one downside which is you have to live on campus for 3 years. But they have pretty nice suites. I think the hardest part will be being away from my friend but I'm going to try my best to make sure we keep in touch. My mom and her bff from high school are still friends to this day, so I believe if they made it through without facebook and all that jazz that we should be fine. haha

Um, so far I have lost a couple more pounds. I did the math and i've lost about 175000 calories total.

Euh, I honostly don't know how I feel about high school and how it's about to come to a close. I want it but I dont. There are just way too many things going on in my head right now. One is very problematic but I survived it once so hopefully I can survive it again. -sigh- I wish the people I really liked would just freaking like me back! geez.

Your beauty can't be covered by your insecurities

So I've made it through two full weeks of summer so far! And I am so proud of my self- i got a Where the Wild Things stuffed animal, an ice cream, and kid's meal at Chick Fil A and only spent $1.05 all day! And none of these things did i steal! Woot! So my hormones are going crazy or something (not in a sexual way) but i'm happy yet i just want to lay in bed and not do poop and cry for some reason. Oh the perks of being a female. Natasha and I volunteered to read to children today at Border's. It was fun, there wasn't a very big turnout though. Which was good for me but not for the Humane Society. :( Then we hung out at Chick fil a for like an hour and a half xD.

I have girls (church) camp this tuesday thru saturday and I will possibly kill myself. I hate being away from home and especially in the heat. DX I don't want to hike 5 miles because I know I will die and I have other problems that I hope do conflict with camp. I just don't want to do it but it's my last year so I should. Another problem, though, is it's at a totally new place that's even further away from home. It's not that I get homesick, it's just that I like knowing I have a secure and private bathroom that I can use whenever!

So far i have lost about 1 lb in the last week! D< And I probably just gained that back eating Chick fil A. It's just my luck that when i actually try...it fails! Imma keep trying though! BTW this one's title comes from the song Run in the Front by Dear & the Headlights who are my loves <3. I think imma make my titles after song lyrics now.

I Just want to sleep and never have to get up. I just want to get lost in my dreams and never have to come back to reality. I just want to bury my head in my pillow and never have to rise. I just want to sleep away this summer and wake up in spring. This sounds nice right now.

You know it's bad when...

you start dreaming about Left for Dead all night and have to try to sing a song in the middle of the night that you can't even recall because you were so tired to try and get L4D2 out of your head and then fall asleep and still dream about zombies. HAHA! hope that major runon sentence made sense. But yeah LET ME TELL YOU! i could not sleep whatsoever last night, it was all zombies! Eventually, i had a dream that I and this guy who went to my school that was super cocky were the survivors. Then i had a dream that i found a pretty white kitty and i brought it home and my mom said i could keep it. And then my reaction was like "WOW! Wait..why can i keep it?" And then they told me my 10+ cat had passed away and i cried like hardcore.

Ahh, i'm so tired. xD but yeah i have church camp next week but i really don't want to go because i dont want to have to worry about showers and my stomach problems. :(  and whoever assigns jobs has obviously never seen me before and placed me as hike leader DX its a freaking 5 mile hike! There is no way in....bad firey place...that i am going to survive that...i can barely do three and i'm pooped out. I kind of wish all this stormiing thats been going on keeps up, i'd really like it to storm all next week ^^ my luck it won't though :(

I just want to sleep. -_-

Summer

Okay, so it has been forever since I have last used Xanga...and I mean FOREVER! I believe the last time I was serious about Xanga was probably 7th grade! So I figured I would get started with this again since it will soon be my Senior Year! I can't believe the idiotic things I posted on this before but feel free to read them. Just let the record show...I do not act nor believe most of the those things anymore. Buttt anyway if you want to stay up to date with whats goiing on in my life then here you go. :D haha.

But now I'm done with that new introduction. I'll get down to buisness...

I can offically call myself a Senior. I'm torn between feelings of YAY and feelings of fear. I just can't grasp the idea that I'm almost out of school. But for now i'm going to not try and think about it and enjoy my summer. I'm trying to lose weight over the summer. So far I have lost 35 lbs, probably from a combination of not eating school lunches and taking my ADHD medication. The funny thing is I thought i gained weight and at the time I wasn't really trying! I'm starting to drink a daily protien shake after I work out almost everyday. I also want to start a detox this summer. I'm working on the wii fit, AB lounge, swimming, and playing tennis. It's starting to get easier to say no to foods even though I really want them! haha. I'm also trying to volunteer more for the Humane Society and Agape to get working and hopefully lose some weight. Lastly, I am looking for a job so if you have any suggestions please let me know! This is going to be a very busy but hopefully satisfactory summer!